夏威夷機械人－梁進

一年一度的書展又快到，望一望身旁書架，看到〔梁進〕的名字，令我想起數年前在書展上與這小子碰面的故事．．．（未完．．）

I have never been to me - Charlene

我Poly 日子的唱k飲歌. 當年的我很喜歡此曲的旋律和歌詞, 更喜歡中間的獨白. 當時其實對歌詞似懂非懂. 今晚嘴裡一直哼著這調子, search 一下youtube - 真好, 好歌重現了...



反覆聽和唱著這首女性的monologue, 內心有多重感受. 究竟我是歌者charlene的身份(identity),還是歌者的女聽眾(lady)的身份? 雖然今天的我並非如歌者般獨身女郎,卻也非甘願是個discontented mother & regimented wife. 我仍是我 - 心中永遠擁有空間和夢想, 任我闖蕩無彊界, 追求天堂的定義和境界卻又不是never been to me. 大概,歌者和聽眾我也不是, 對人世間的paradox, 只是一笑置之吧, 也許, 了解生命比活著更重要...

Hey lady, you lady, cursing at your life
You're a discontented mother and a regimented wife
I've no doubt you dream about the things you'll never do
But, I wish someone had talked to me
Like I wanna talk to you.....

Oh, I've been to Georgia and California and anywhere I could run
I took the hand of a preacher man and we made love in the sun
But I ran out of places and friendly faces because I had to be free
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me

Please lady, please lady, don't just walk away
'Cause I have this need to tell you why I'm all alone today
I can see so much of me still living in your eyes
Won't you share a part of a weary heart that has lived million lies....

Oh, I've been to Niece and the Isle of Greece while I've sipped champagne on a yacht
I've moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo and showed 'em what I've got
I've been undressed by kings and I've seen some things that a woman ain't supposed to see
I've been to paradise, but I've never been to me

[spoken]
Hey, you know what paradise is?
It's a lie, a fantasy we create about people and places as we'd like them to be
But you know what truth is?
It's that little baby you're holding, it's that man you fought with this morning
The same one you're going to make love with tonight
That's truth, that's love......

Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children that might have made me complete
But I took the sweet life, I never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet
I've spent my life exploring the subtle whoring that costs too much to be free
Hey lady......
I've been to paradise, (I've been to paradise)
But I've never been to me

(I've been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)
I've been to paradise, never been to me
(I've been to Neice and the isle of Greece while I've sipped champagne on a yacht)
I've been to paradise, never been to me
(I've been to cryin' for unborn children that might have made me complete)
I've been to paradise, never been to me
(I've been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)
I've been to paradise, never been to me